DReaMS AnD WisHes

2011-05-30T23:20:00.001+08:00

Done composing a song!

Composer: Berlin Goh , Joycelyn Tan
Title: Fairytale
Date: 30-05-11
Genre: Acoustic
Lyrics: Berlin Goh , Joycelyn Tan

Verse 1:
Have you ever dream of real life fairytale
A little enchantment that could be seen
Sing a song that could tell you everything
Everything is all about you
Verse 2:
Have you ever took a glance at me
Ever notice my smile when you’re around
Caught you gazing at others once in awhile
But it never happens to me

Bridge:
I look like a fool, waiting for you
In the midst of the night
This love is too hard, my heart is breaking
Will you even care to heal it
Chorus:
I gave a shout out and was loved for a while
But you left it all behind
I gave you my heart
But now is already shattered
I hope you realised
All along thinking that you were mine
My fairytale

Em, C, G, D
Verse 3:
Have you ever found your princess
The one who loves you more than I do
If you ever do, I’ll give you my blessings in any way that I could
Bridge:
I look like a fool, waiting for you
In the midst of the night
This love is too hard, my heart is breaking
Will you even care to heal it

Chorus:
I gave a shout out and was loved for a while
But you left it all behind
I gave you my heart
But now is already shattered
I hope you realised
All along thinking that you were mine
My fairytale

Forget the heartache, forget the sadness
This will be last of everything
Cos this will be linked to the last fairytale

Chorus:
I gave a shout out and was loved for a while
But you left it all behind
I gave you my heart
But now is already shattered
I hope you realised
All along thinking that you were mine
My fairytale(x3)

2011-05-29T22:47:00.001+08:00

Dear Blog,

I feel like creating a band well just telling how i feel. Recently im so into thai movies. One was"A little thing

called love"Starring Mario Maurner. I really love this movie. it is like a story that has been replayed many times.

Something close to mine as well just that i don't get the guy. I dun love anyone. No one is chasing me. Yeah, thats

about it. Haisssss..........well i have to wait rite. First love starts when you're a teenager. Till you're

married. First love, First enchantment, First fairytale. The nasty side of things: First heartbreak, First

tears...Blah blah blah. Well you get it....the entire picture is just like that. Recently composed a song

called "My Fairytale"Hopefully i could upload it onto my youtube account soon. I did some videos but well, those

were crappy ones. SL camp rocks. Want to go back soon again! HOOHOHOOH!!!! ><

2011-05-22T21:53:00.001+08:00

Dear blog,

I wonder what is love? I want to experience it even if its only a while with the guy i

like a lot...but somehow, guys dont seem to be attracted to me alot. Maybe im a little

plain and boring but seriously....I want to know if there's any guy out there who only

sees the heart? sigh...life is so hard. Money, education, love....everything needs to

be taken into consideration. it isnt easy at all... I wonder what do ppl like abt my

blog. They comment nice things abt my blog. Its nice to hear :) i cant believe i got

betrayed by my frens again. I will never trust them again..... I gues....

Berlin

2011-04-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Sorry for not posting lately.... been busy with mid year examinations :(!!! Well~~~have to go do some revision again! Let me jus say smth..... Don't everyone just want their true love someday?? I want one!! But....no one likes me.... i cant find the teenage romance that i yearn so much :( Cheers!

2011-04-06T13:49:00.001+08:00

Why are people so unpredictable at times? Why can't we all get along? Just a turn of a personality, everything changes. I really don't get it. People tell me, this is life, it is like this. But i refuse to accept it. I can't take the fact that people changes just like this. A sway of personality suddenly. Promises are just empty. Trust is just plastic. Nothing seems to be true to me. Friendship seems pointless. why????

2011-04-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

Dear Blog,

I wonder whats the best way to do when you feel like confiding in a guy? Im attracted to someone but i don't know about my own feelings.

Maybe it's because he looks so handsome. Or maybe i just have this sudden urge to know him better? But he went through a breakup

recently....I don't want to look desperate for him. I think just able to talk to him is nice enough! heheheh!! well, SYF is coming

relatively soon! really nervous! I hope choir gets silver again! Pray hard. Japan, don't give up! I will be praying for you.

Love, Berlin

2011-03-22T18:34:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

i dun understand why there's so much conflicts in this world? Is it really bcos we

don't really like each other then that's y we fight? But seriously.... dosent that

only hurt others more. I've tried to watch my words, to be careful of everyone around

me.Im trying not to hurt anyone unknowingly, but it seems i just cant get it across.

People still mistook my actions and thus leading to mre misunderstandings. I really

dont know what to do anymore and its really driving me insane!!! what can i do???

Sigh.... i wish this problem will end soon. Somehow i still cant find my Mr.

Right...:( Pray for Japan!

God bless them!!

<3 Berlin

2011-03-12T20:35:00.001+08:00

Dear blog,
These few days, i am so obsessed with sports! Basketball, badminton and running.... I would love to swim, but very few are willing to come together. Hahahha! Well, have to see when i can make it again. I got selected for Choir SYF which is a good thing for once!

2011-03-02T20:39:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not publishings stories, will try to upload the 2nd one soon. Busy with common tests thats y!!! But will try to update ASAP!!!!

2011-02-25T23:38:00.003+08:00

Chapter 1:

Flipping the pages of my notebook, i realised, everything in it was filled with scribbles of his name. That was what i always did during boring lessons. I smiled to myself at the thought of him.

"Let this equation be...." Mr Clannad,the maths teacher rambled on.
I let my mind float elsewhere not realising someone tapping on my shoulder.
"Earth to Caithlyn! Back from Venus? Don't tell me you're still thinking of him?"

"shhh...not so loud." i caught a glimpse of Mr Clannad turning back and scannig the class for what the commotion was about.

"Jannie, we should talk later"

'You'd better!"

Jannie was my classmate in fifth grade, now she had became my best friend for 3 years. She was the most popular girl in school since young. I was the plain looking one. But for some reason in fifth grade, Jannie befriended me. It's weird how everything turns out.
Summer break is coming. We are going to a villa soon for the summer for a part time job this year. This lesson would be the last for this spring.Great!

The guy, i was talking about? Long story.....It's really a sad case. Have to explain more in detail.....

2011-01-25T16:25:00.002+08:00

Tell me people, should i start writing a book and publish it here chapter by chapter? A story on love, friendship, family. Well basically life.

2011-01-24T17:22:00.000+08:00

The longest running couple on ‘We Got Married‘ – the Adam Couple – will be ending their virtual marriage.

On a recent broadcast of MBC radio ‘Shim Shim Ta Pa‘, 2AM’s Jo Kwon and Brown Eyed Girls member Ga-In revealed that they’re in the process of recording their last episode together.

Jung Yoon Jung, the PD from ‘We Got Married’ revealed to Star News stating, “Jo Kwon and Ga-In couple have started recording their final episode. The pair have built up a lot of affection toward one another over time, and they have shed a lot of tears.”

The Adam Couple started their virtual marriage in September of 2009, and quickly became one of the most popular couples on the show. Their relationship on the show lasted for 1 year and 5 months but unfortunately, all good things must come to an end.

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I would definitely miss the ADAM couple! Jokwon and Gain FIGHTING! Now i really look forward to KHUNTORIA couple mre often. I love them to the max!!^.^

2011-01-21T19:07:00.000+08:00

2011-01-21T19:03:00.002+08:00

I looveeeee INFINITE~!INFINITE is amazing! they r totalllyyy the best ever! They just had their comeback!!!!!

2011-01-16T18:21:00.004+08:00

-Your dreams n wishes-

What if you had only a few days to left. In the remaining of days what would you do? Have you ever asked yourself that qns? Not many of us has the answer to these questions, Say goodbye to your family and friends. Apologise to every single one of the ppl whom you have hurt badly before. What will you really do? reflect on your life?

2011-01-11T19:00:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Another day has passed. I felt like there is a massive feeling radiating out from me. Know why? Cos, perhaps that things dun work out with the person whomi likeI had a rush on him but yet he dosen't seem to like me at all.If that's the case, My friends told me to give him up.Should i really? There are times when i was just joking around saying oh i like this person here and there but....somehow i like this guy.But my friends say its weird to like him.I dun really understand these kind of things.They are too complicated for me seriously.Life is hard like a lot of ppl say. BUt is it so that complicated? Come to a new year, a new term yet sill seem the same to me.Im afraid. somehow. afraid of...? i dun know. Hmmm,.....im ful wonders

2011-01-01T19:55:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Happy New Year everyone! It dosent feel like 2011 rite? It just feel like any other day....i

wonder why? Will it be a great year ahead? will school feel good and happy...or sad and

difficult?? I don't know how to face this life sometimes.I guess we will all have to take one step

at a time and face a happier, greater world!

Heres a song i wrote for myself in a new year.

Verse 1:

Don't you feel it's a little wierd,

stuck in a little space

a space of your own

in a little world where no one can reach

is it easy

or really stuffy

a new year is here but why....

why....

does it feel so strange

Chorus:

Like i said once

Like i said before

I need someone

I need to hear a word

Love

A great year ahead or maybe not

So tell me if its a lot to handle

Life's a chore but even so

you gotta grip on and fly~~

It isn't difficult to see

It isn't difficult to look at a new day~

Verse 2:

Some things are not to be told

If you can see

If you imagine

A life without colours

A new world...a new day

Something that seem so strange

A new year has come

And i have to face all new dreams

Chorus(x2)

Hope you like it!~Berlin(Seonhye)

2010-12-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

COSPLAY PICS FOR FUN!

2010-12-17T23:54:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

I lost my Handphone today!!! BOOOHOHHOHOHOOOO~ I kept crying over it. Im so

saaaaaaaadddddddddd~ wonder why it would become like this. I just don't understand. But of

course, it's over. NO use brooding over spilled milk! I just have to accept this and continue on

with my boring life!~~Well.... The law of attraction says to continue to be happy and just lead a

happy life. Cos postive thoughts attracts positive effects!! woots~ So i must always continue to

stay happy even in the darkest moments. Don't you agree. Do not let a little mistake or a

setback push you down to the deepest...but rather use both feet to get up and strive!!!! I've

learnt my mistake and would not make the same mistake. But, a little sad.....cos that was my

BELOVED MOBILE~~~~!!! Hahahaa well....that's all for today.Sayonara~

Love, Berlin(seonhye)

2010-12-14T20:31:00.004+08:00

Dear blog,
Really sorry that i didnt post much lately. I am really keen on vocaloids nowadays. Really glad! Woots!
Vocaloid is a singing synthesizer application, with its signal processing part developed through a joint research project between the Pompeu Fabra University in Spain and the Yamaha Corporation, who backed the developement financially—and later developed the software into the commerical product "Vocaloid".[1][2] The software enables users to synthesize singing by typing in lyrics and melody. It uses synthesizing technology with specially recorded vocals of voice actors or singers. To create a song, the user must input the melody and lyrics. A piano roll type interface is used to input the melody and the lyrics can be entered on each note. The software can change the stress of the pronunciations, add effects such as vibrato, or change the dynamics and tone of the voice. Each Vocaloid is sold as "a singer in a box" designed to act as a replacement for an actual singer. The software is available in English and Japanese, although a Chinese version was produced for Sonika.

Update on Death note~
About L
In Death Note

The "L" that L uses to represent himself. The font used is "Cloister Black" and can be recreated by using "old english MT"
L, who also uses the aliases Hideki Ryuga (流河旱樹 Ryūga Hideki?), Ryuzaki (竜崎 Ryūzaki?), Eraldo Coil (エラルド＝コイル Erarudo Koiru?), and Deneuve (ドヌーヴ Donūvu?), the latter two for which he has developed reputations as the second- and third-best detectives in the world, is quite secretive and only communicates with the world through his assistant Watari. He never shows his face to the world, instead representing himself with a capital L in Cloister Black font. His real name, L Lawliet, is only revealed in the guidebook Death Note 13: How to Read.[14] When asked about L's ethnicity, Ohba responded saying "I think of him as a quarter Japanese, a quarter English, a quarter Russian, a quarter French or Italian, like that".[4] After meeting the Kira investigation team, he requests that the task force refer to him as Ryuzaki for discretion. Ohba said that L is the smartest character in the manga because "the plot requires it".[15] He added that he personally views L as "slightly evil".[16]
L's disheveled and languid appearance masks his great powers of deduction and insight. He tends to second-guess everything he is presented with, and is extremely meticulous and analytical. He has several quirks such as preferring to crouch rather than sit, eating only sweet foods like desserts and fruits, and holding items very delicately. L stayed in England for five years, and during that time he was the champion in tennis for the England Junior Cup, and he is still a good player, suggesting he might still practice. He plays tennis with Light, who used to be a champion himself. In chapter 38 of the manga, L suggests that even though he eats only sweet foods, he remains underweight because the brain uses the most calories of any organ in the body. He also says that if he sits normally, his reasoning ability would drop 40%.[17] Whenever L gives percentages to indicate how much he suspects a person of committing a crime, such as "five percent", in reality he means over 90 percent; Ohba said about L, "The truth is, he's a liar. [laughs]"[14]
L suspects early in the investigation that Light Yagami is Kira, but cannot obtain any concrete evidence. In several situations, Light seems to be proven innocent by the circumstances, but L remains skeptical. If Light were Kira, the case would be solved, and L has trouble letting go of this simple and complete solution. L can easily present his conclusions publicly at any time, and with his reputation, is taken seriously. He also intends to tell Light that he can "take the offensive".[14] After capturing a man who also has a Death Note, Light tricks Rem, the shinigami owner of a Death Note that she gives to Misa, into killing L for his own personal gain, making her believe that she must kill him for the sake of Misa's life. L's last sight before death is Light triumphantly smiling over him, and in his last moment L confirms to himself that Light is the first Kira.[18]
Death Note 13: How to Read describes L in the Death Note yonkoma as the "holder of the world's greatest mind" and having the "powerful ability to act like a fool". Death Note 13: How to Read adds that in the yonkoma "it's like [L was] born to be mocked".

Really tired of the news that has been spreading around. A war might get started. Its

really sad because whenever there is war, Innocent people get hurt! Is that the way!

No its totally outrageous. How i wish they would just stop fighting! NOt only that,

people around me has been hurting because of bad people who hurt them. They just want

to lead a happy life,but some people just keep doing things to hurt them.Is that the

way?

2010-11-24T21:12:00.003+08:00

I love these Cosplay pictures.Dressing up as L isn't easy but it really was a fun thing to do!

HAHAHA~

I guess i need to learn more.I have a death note book now.Yipee! I have slightly

recovered.Thank goodness.But,nowadays i don't really have any appetite.Wonder why is that

so.....^.^ Hope i could connect in the internet and sms world more often.I seem to be disengaged

with anyone somehow.......

Written by Yasuko Suzuki,Seonhye

2010-11-23T13:45:00.000+08:00

L change the world

2010-11-23T13:32:00.000+08:00

2010-11-22T21:16:00.001+08:00

On the surface, Death Note is and will continue to be one of the most unique and mind-blowing anime in recent history. The tale of a young man full of disgust towards the world and society is nothing out of the ordinary, no, it’s very commonplace these days. The world is in a downward spiral, murderers, sexual predators and thieves all walk the streets alike, free from the constraints of a struggling government and prosecution system. Where are the gods when an innocent child is murdered, when women run through alleyways in terror of an ever approaching rapist? I’ll tell you; they’re watching. And a few have come to play.
If you were granted the power of a god, if you had the power to kill, would you? Would you kill to save others? Would you kill for justice? Would you be able to maintain your own sanity and morals? Would you be able to prevent yourself from greed for recognition, or maybe even simple fun? Where will it stop, how will it end, how many innocent people will you have to sacrifice for a world of peace? These are all questions Yagami Light faces when he discovers a Death Note and encounters a Shinigami, a Death God, named Ryuk.

When he realizes the full power of the Death Note, Light knows exactly what to do. He will kill all those with evil traits and will lead a new world into sanctuary. His excitement is frightening, never once does he regret his actions. He’s hollow, his only emotions come at the thought of eternal glory as Justice itself, and when he must mentally battle his equal, his only obstacle, L. Light, dubbed as Kira, is able to kill simply knowing the name and faces of his victims, by writing their names into his Death Note, but his plans for greatness continue to be thwarted by the mysterious and cunning L.
The mental battles between L and Light can be astonishing, but they all boil down to one thing: “Will he outthink my outthinking?” It’s a constant turn-by-turn board game. Both are 15 steps ahead of the real-world, the one who wins won’t be decided on wit, but rather by trust. The trust in others will be what makes or breaks these players. Trust the wrong person and you’ll die. Trust the right person and you’ll survive.
The animation is average for the more recent popular anime, but the key scenes are delicately touched up. The character animations are realistic, to give that feel of connection with the viewer. The music is great, minus the last opening and endings which sound like a middle-school band banging on garbage cans and ripping their vocal cords with retched screams of incomprehensible lyrics.
Death Note is an amazing anime, the plot and story are perfected beyond greatness. But there’s one thing that keeps this anime from being renowned as a masterpiece, character development. There’s very little depth to the main characters. They are all clear-cut with no inner-emotional battles. Light himself never once thinks twice about actually killing thousands of people, he uses and abuses the few allies he has, which will end in his destruction. He has no conflicts with himself, yet he’s not a senseless killing machine; in essence, he’s nothing. The creators of this series failed to recognize these inhuman attributes as just that, inhuman. When viewers cannot fully understand the main character, they cannot connect with him.
Thankfully, I can forgive the shortcomings of Death Note. What really made me love this series is its unmistakable perfection of suspense. Every episode will leave you begging for more, and yet there are no horrible cliffhangers! The ending of this series really pushed it to become one of my all time favorites. In the second to last episode I honestly felt like I was about to have a heart attack. My heart was pounding against my chest, my blood was rushing. I knew what would happen, the only way the series could end, but it didn’t matter! I was so enthralled with the emotion of the episode; it sends chills down my spine just thinking about it! No other anime has ever given me such a thrill, the emotions I experienced were surreal and benign.
I highly recommend Death Note to any fan of suspense or thought-provoking entertainment.

2010-06-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

사랑해 Super Junior!

Im still so sad over what the girl in 1F had said to me.She's really harsh on her words.I love Super Junior and other K-pop idol.So why must she be so mean??I just can't understand.Are there people in the world who are so mean?I dun get it?Why does people have to do evil things.This is the second time i've ever been cyber-bullied.Its really tough to go through this.It is a total of 3 messages already.Should i Report?or let history repeat itself.If only...K pop idols can come and comfort me
HHAHHAHHAHA!LOL!Well....Super Junior Saranghae!
The K-drama:You're Beautful is really a great show!!!!!I like it a lot!Thanks to Vernice recommendation~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Well...that's it for now...Sigh....Till then.....

2010-05-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

I admire this man a lot.....He really genuinely cares for all the WILD animeals,give them trusts and never ever betrayed them,poach them,he treats them like his child.This is love.

KEVIN RICHARDSON,you ROCK!

2010-05-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

Somehow,i realised the true essence of leadership.Thank you my dear friends,my dearest seniors who stood by me,maybe without the help of them,i might have remained the way i am before.I need to stand up to my beliefs.Sometimes,i must know how to be a follower before becoming a leader.That's it,that's what i have to do.But,i still cant help feeling somehow bad inside.Yeah,i need to be strong eh?Hahas....but im still remaining a little emo...why?

What happens when you say"I hate You" to someone you like?

2010-05-24T17:43:00.001+08:00

1H,Why isit so hard to be in charge of something?Some might think its just an easy thing to do.Some might feel,in charge again,so she is going to be really bossy again.I,Berlin Goh,have failed to do my job well......it really is hard to know that i have given the wrong impression to people,to make people think differently about me.To make parents feel negative about me.A bad influence.I tried my best.But to no avail.I always wanted the class to cooperate,but nobody can.I tried to be cheerful but nobody really bothered.I hid myself in a wall of disbelief.I told myself"its gonna be alright...it will be fine"I am really afraid.....cos,i dont even know how everything will turn out.I thought it will be a new life here,in Westwood.But,somehow i feel miserable."Ah,there goes another lecture from the high and mighty Berlin Goh once more"some of you might say so....but,can anyone understand this feeling?I don't like it,I don't like it at all.When i received bad critics behind my back,i keep quiet.....parents are not happy with me,i can only say,"im very sorry...i will take this into consideration."Is it my fault really?Have i done wrongly?Is it bad?Im a bad leader isn't it.I cant stay happy anymore,because its not easy.Why?Im really bossy isnt it?Im not asking for your sympathy,im merely just seeking for everyone's kindness.Everyone has a heart made of pure gold.Friendship that are not easy to be found.Kindness,i really need it. -Berlin

Lifes a wonder

2010-05-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

A whisper to you,my heart craves for you,the softness of your kindness and that smile....i want it

all.A heart beating from me but where have you been.You're beyond my reach.Nowhere near

me.Its hard to keep away.Why?Why arent you talking?

Am i drifting away from you?Why cant you give me a chance?The same thing again?The same

thing that someone did to me?Are you like this?Stay away....then....i will not be hurt again.I want

a happy life.Is it so much to ask?I dont know where im heading.Please dun let me fall.I BEG

YOU!!!I'll wait, one day for you to speak.Speak to me with that kind voice of yours.So,please,dun

leave so silently.Anyways went swimming with Claudia on Friday.Today,I went swimming again

with my jie(qiting) it was really fun and all.On Friday,I was a retard.I went to put some stuffs

back to our locked locker.Realising that we had only a 2dollar notes,we changed with the ticket

counter.After putting the stuffs in,i locked it not realisingtheres still coins in my hand.Then i

looked in my palms.Coins....right i forgot to put the coins in the locker.HAHA!!!!Claudia

said:How can someone forget to put something that is in their hands back into the locker and

locked it right away?Then i looked at Claudia's hand and realised that the bottle of coke she

bought was not put in the locker too,how are we going to swim like this?Then i called myself

the most retarded person in the world,Afterwards we laughed like mad.So in the end we chuggd

down the whole bottle of coke and went into the pool.BOTH OF US LET OUT A BIG*BURP*!

HAHAH!nice~~~~Not feminine at all though^^Today,my sis taught me how to swim breast

stroke and spent 3hrs at the pool.Went home with an aching body.3Hrs of swimming on

friday,4hrs swimming on saturday!HAHA!ridiculous but i had fun!Thanks you guys,i love

you.MY sister,Qiting and claudia, a gr8 friend.My other gr8 friend,where are you.You havent

been talking to me these few days.........its sad and lonely.Mum,whats wrong with you?Being in a

sour mood all day long.Being so mopey.Venting your anger on us.Not a kind word at all.What

happened?

2010-05-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Where do i belong in this world?Sometimes it sad to know all of this is a nightmare and not a

dream.Angry teachers,angry students,strict school,unbreakable school rules(at least for me)

things you cant tell,people you can't trust.All of these are so creepy sometimes,you just want to

run away from it all.......you want to scream,escape!HELP!but....this is a nightmare that you are

facing alone.No one's helping you....No one's there,you're afraid like a helpless hite mouse lost in

a maze but you know this is a nightmare.But,when will you wake up from this?Getting scolded is

one thing,feeling guilt is another,not knowing what you have done wrong is the worst.But,no one

is willing to tell you anything.This is the cruel fact.The cruel world.I want all these to end.But

how?Im lost,confused sad.I feel like moping now.Practical test is tomorrow but,i don't have any

motivation to keep me going.Will i really fail that project?Am i in the right place now?Am i

surrounded with the right friends?AM I ME?Will someone be there for me?Strong kindness to

keep me going?

2010-05-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

Dear Blog,

Im back for more stunning pictures!Just joking.Having said that...I'm really keen on

photographing a few of my friends these days.I had this hopeless dream....for him to notice

me....this pathetic hopeless dream that i dun even know if it can ever be accomplished..I want

him to notice me,but its really rather hard thats cos....well,i have to wait rite?Time determines

everything^^I want to go to the beach.Hear the waves running up against the shore.Feel the

water swell over my toes,the breeze that blows my hair off my shoulders.Taking in the salty

air.Tasting salt over my lips. I can just imagine the sandy beach now...maybe with the

sunset...heavenly~~~~HAhaha!Got to wait~Exams and common tests are all around now.No

time for beaches=(so sad!

Gotta go~Berlin

2010-05-07T17:03:00.000+08:00

Dear Blog,
Oh gosh....So SO SO SO SO sorry that i didnt post online for 1 million years.Haha im just joking

yeah?Its been kinda long and im really missing a lot in this world.In my life....I havent been

noticing much around me lately,Im just drifting everywhere.Buried myselfs in tests thats why

its really kind of boring always repeating the same thing.Hahah!I guess its always the same

huh=)I really want to be happy but sometimes this aching feeeling grows within me.How can i be

happy?How is it really possible.Life is like this rite?I have to smile.If i smile,then i would have no

worries.Isnt it right??^^NO one has been coming to my blog lately.....Sigh...save my cbox

someone??:(

2010-03-22T21:44:00.000+08:00

Why?I dont get it....Why am i so dumb as to tell him what was on my mind.I guess i did the wrong move.He is ignoring me....avoiding me,he seems eager to run away....I don't know...what have i done?Its heart-renching cos im at a loss here....I dun get it.At all.No.....Stuff like this isnt really easy to get rid of.How am i to face him.Am i annoying.Today,i scolded a classmate,made her upset.I know it wasnt my fault...wasnt her fault...but she did smth wrong,i should tell her.But i felt really bad cos....i shouted at her.I shouldn't have.Sorry Joyce......and....what am i supposed to be doing the first day of sch on term2.....Study Study STUDY!but....why?why??why???Im so upset....so sad.I ran to my room-cooped up-crying-sniffing in my pillow-and throwing things about-writing in my diary-something is wrong with me...no one likes me,NO ONE....except a few maybe?Im sorry for everything!!!IT felt damn wrong~~=(
Berlin~~Crying and telling herself...its my fault...its my fault...sorry...sorry....

2010-03-11T18:42:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Yesterday was my birthday and it wasnt as good as i really had expected.Today,my arm hurts

more,but the emotional feelings in me hurts more.Sometimes even nagging at me about certain

stuffs.I guess it wasnt so much like saying inappropriate.but there are some words very close to

hurting comments.I kept my mouth shut for the sake of people.Today,i learnt that i should not

trust people so much and really open my eyes big enough to now who is the right friend for me.I

feel....some stuffs about her really dosent mean it to me.I guess thats the end of a CLOSE

friendship.A friend yes,a bestie i guess not......

可能是我自己的错吧。Tomorrow my seniors are celebrating my bday!!!!原本以为她是一个能依

靠的朋友。。。。。但是。。。。我错了。

2010-03-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

今天，是我的生日！单设跌倒了，还骨折呢。痛死了！but its okay now i guess.....i so look forward to a good birthday week!!!WOOTS~~~~byebye...off to celebrate!

2010-03-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

亲爱的日记，
今天，我才发现原来这个世界石油不喜欢我的人。当然我早已知道，但不晓得有那么多的人对我不满。其时我自己有部队的地方。总不能怪别人，说他们的不满但自己却明知故问是我自己造成的错误是他们这么生我的气。我也要检讨自己一下。但是有时候朋友的话真的有一点儿伤人心。不过没关系。对我来，这已经是司空见惯的事了。我也想说没关系，已经经历过了嘛。但是我也像经历过了又怎样？算了吧。这天应该很快的过去。对！就是这样吧。
~=)幸福是这样计算的吗？-谩玲Berlin

2010-02-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

Dear me,
Todae seemes like other days just that met up with a friend frm far away.I was a poor host but of course i had fun as well as the rest.Hopefully.I realised there are people in this world who could be nice to you,could be mean and yeah and some ppl obviously just like gurls with pretty faces and petite bodies but.....is that really wad they want,or is it really true love.Am i helping or harming?I helped someone before.But the relationship turned out sour in the end and they broke up.Am i helping now?Sometimes staying out of these kind of situations are really hard.I seem to be that sort of person ppl really dislike.In choir,im ruled out by all the sec 1s.Im pretty sure of that and why??Well...it just happens.Am i happy now???Im not sure????Am i????I guess sometimes its like this.Life's like this.I have to go through this all the same isnt't it??Isn't it the same thing all over again?I know that.And these kind of stuffs really hurt.
As the saying goes-The most poisonous thing in the world are not poisons but the human heart.The human heart could be pure,kind and caring.But at the same time,Evil and dark.Which one are you?I guess some of my predictions of ppl are right after all.Who knows right?Ppl changes.
The story goes on as a living dairy by berlin

2010-02-22T18:17:00.000+08:00

Hi again.Never posted for quite some time...O.o quite boring or perhaps a little stressed cos of

common test!LOL>well.....what to do???Hmt is ok for me now...not so bad.Too bad i didnt get to

see that guy yesterday.Oh well....back to revising.SAYONARA~

2010-02-12T14:24:00.000+08:00

Today is the celebration of Chinese New year....im getting really stressed up lately...and its

really truly tiring~and im really a stressed up person..a loner...wadever!went back to my

primary school....but it wasnt nice trust me...it just sucked a lot.Im really not going bac again!I

have projects to handle even on CNY!OH MY OH MY

seriously....=.= gosh life's hard to pass....Chinese new yeear......will it be fun to pass...I really hope

so...not a torture i guess so,lets just see for the time being.Once bitten twice shy i wont ever

trust that" " ever.Im 100%sure......

2010-02-06T21:26:00.001+08:00

Im kinda bored lately not doing anything and so sleepy all the time...who can spare me these boredom.Happy birthday Maisarah!!

2010-02-05T16:51:00.001+08:00

Camps finally over...and im thankful for that.....People can be your frens for one day,enemies
the next day,its really hard to interact this way.I kinda felt that it was painful the way ppl
says im gaining sympathy.Who in the right mind would do that????!!!I have really no
idea.GOSH!Sometimes its easier to be away from others(the ones that you dun really want to
b with)Maybe its the best way to avoid conflicts???^^

2010-01-31T19:07:00.001+08:00

wow...its such a long time since i last posted anything on the blog...its kinda

stressful for me lately...wads with all the breathing

probs...studies,frens....exercises....kinda irrelevent.But wadevers!haha!i have to

do so much of the CS projects...sleeping rather late too...i gotta take care.1H..is

my class...and let me tell you its endless fun!

www.onehopeforyo-u.blogspot.com

well...sometimes it can be rather tough to handle,but it can all work out all the

same.A classmate of mine has been despised and she isnt well like.I can see shes

rather sad....but lifes goes on right?things arent that hard to settle even amongst

itself...times changes but its easy to wound up and turn things rite.message to

her:"life isnt hard...you arent despised....and its cos of the things you do not

bcos ppl wants to despise you...but hink of the things you've done and ask yourself

once mre...dun give up and change ....turn over a new leaf...you'll succeed!"

2010-01-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

Had an asthematic reaction again.This sucks.A lot!

wel......days passed and its like kinda boring really

LOL,hahas not much to say~bye

2010-01-09T11:34:00.000+08:00

2010-01-08T23:23:00.001+08:00

2010-01-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

Not knowing wad to join!arhs!

1st choice-Concert Band
2nd choice-guitar ensemble
3rd choice-saint johns ambulance brigade
4th choice-Npcc
5th choice-Girls Brigade

Sianz!!!Hectic Hectic..Boring Boring!

2010-01-07T18:06:00.001+08:00

Another long and dreading day has passed...I guess some things changed,or should i

say many things changed.I hurt some peoples' feelings and im sorry...well....its

just for some reason.Its just too early to fall in love somehow.Not in love but its

ok for a crush...This guy,Crljen(unique name,pronouns as cryan)hes in my class and

hes nice.And he look a lot like david,talks like david...and all sorts of

stuff.Hahas,its really wierd.My heart starts to palpitate but wadeva...he cant be

with me.Strictly forbidden actually.And moreover...im a gurl who actually dun know

where she stands i guess...

2010-01-01T13:28:00.000+08:00

Came back at 3am today after countdown party.Was so tired and bushed out!tumbled on

my bed and fell asleep.Woke at 12pm today...Getting ready to go out with my family

members.Update soon again!Dinner and dance countdown party with my mum's office

members....300 over peeps!WOW!saw someone....sigh....

2009-12-27T10:48:00.000+08:00

Went to Marina Madrina Hotel for a wedding dinner.Yep,it was beautiful.Kept quiet at first then haha started to talk to people!yeah...they weere very friendly..i like talking to them.Hahas!!!so much for being shy!well....looked at the scenery...i guess the wedding theme was garden scenery probably.^^LOL!!!hahahahahhahahhahas!!!yeah.Came back at 12am...Urgh..Drowsy and tired.Well i had fun.And dinner was superb.

These moments are perfect...these moments are......me.....>Berlin~

2009-12-26T13:16:00.000+08:00

Cookie making today!Yep!It was cool~It tasted nice,i guess...seriously^^i messed up

the entire kitchen and stuff.LOL.Well....i've got to go to a wedding dinner

later.Christmas is over...If only we celebrated a white christmas.Isnt it?Is being

contagious outrageous?

2009-12-25T20:50:00.000+08:00

In secondary school....i guess its just not about being in the best class.....worst

class or anything like that.Its plainly just joy,happiness and effort that makes you

happy in the school that you are in.That is all that matters really.Not thinking

about other stuffs...but just focusing on studies and friendships.Thats all that is

really enuf.Being just plainly satisfied if you get a B3 is sumting called

encouragement,theres nth bad abt it.Merry Xmas to everyone out there...and smile.Cos

even in the darkest moment,sumtimes theres always sumting in them that makes you

glow.Just remember to reach out to your goals and dream like you mean it.Like i said

b4...if you wish in your heart deeply,one day your dream will come true....miracles

will happen and wishes will blossom.^^MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!~~~

Berlin_always SMILEX^^

2009-12-23T23:07:00.001+08:00

His (nickelback)songs rocked the house!WOOHOO~~

2009-12-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

i didnt post for quite some time.Do dreams come true?Do any dreams comes true?

Will a little pixie dust help?Well...Dreams i guess have to be wished deep in the heart for it to

really come true.How do you even mange to tell yourself that dreams comes true?If i had struck

rich in my dreams,does that mean i would be rich soon?I dun noe abt tat.But i know one thing

for sure...dreams cant be taken for granted.You can hope,You can Pray,You can wish...if only you

believe.Went to Westwood secondary...saw a ton of my frends....GR8~~i guess.LOL.but yeah

guess wad?Shaleni is in my class...i cant believe i got into the best class of westwood!!

WOOTS~~and i have a frend at least~~Zzz...Shaleni!!dun leave me,shes appealing for jurong so if

she got accepted shes going to jurong,leaving me in westwood.But wadeva~~~Least i will be is a

loner.No biggie i can live myself.Won't die,wont fall.Best thing is SCHOOL!i cant wait for school

to start.And i have a crisis..i've got to sit for an apitute test for higher mothertongue.Applying for

one.ZZzz~~sians....chinese continuous composition.I havent done it even once...how am i

supposed to deal with it?Thankfully~~~I have my chinese teacher!!!!GO 吴老师!

WOOTS`~updating soon again!!!

~berlin

2009-12-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

Just went on a trip to Batam_Indonesia...quite a cool trip really
Went up on a boat...felt the strong breeze~~Woohoo!
Played car racing and bicycle riding!Wow....but the hotel sucks a lot.A million.cos' its so budget.we didn't know that....they said it was a 3-star hotel...bet they were just probably telling us craps.My cousins and sister were like yea"3 stars" Brilliant!!!!and i was like "put the "less" behind the star...it will become "3-starless hotel"Practically...eww
but otherwise...yea!I love the trip.It was fun but tiring~~
signing off...Berlin...btw "The last song"will be out in 2010....starring Miley cyrus.Good show,go watch the trailer-.*

2009-12-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

A duet with my cousin...ENJOY~~~~

2009-12-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

my favourite song!!!!Very cool~~~

2009-12-01T19:02:00.000+08:00

I love todays life.There will never be any regrets for as long as i live.IM REALLY HAPPIE~

my SWORN sister...(Abigail) actually was moved by the song i created and was dedicateed to her.She cried!

IM touched.Seriously=)i want my life to always be happie~~went to the library then went to the

sand pit to do some art drawings and words^^Photos above~~~happie browsing~~~well....just

wanna let someone noe.."it dosent matter wad happens..Like the river flows...always noe that

you are loved~"Love always,Berlin

2009-11-30T22:12:00.001+08:00

Tiring....Feeling woozy~~~~~Changed my name to Berlin cool huh?? or boring...Sister's name

is Vienna....another state of germany!HAHA!!!How are all of you people??FINE???or still can't

get over your frenz huh?Btw...added new songs in my playlist~~~ENJOY~~~~I can't wait for

the new start of secondary.What wuld it be like??Might be strange to yearn for school to

open.BUt~~HAha who knows...anything culd awaits you in a new kind of environment.New

surprises each day~

2009-11-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

2009-11-26T16:15:00.000+08:00

Psle results release day!!

how are you everyone???Wads all your PSLE scores??i hope all of you have done very well!!!

Sad!!!!i only got 222!!!Trust me!!go fairfield Methodist School!!!its the best for all

im going to NA instead of Express....i will do well in Fairfield for NA to upgrade to express!!
lol
~~byes!!!

2009-11-20T21:35:00.001+08:00

In love with UVERworld!!!~~~~

2009-11-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

Today i gone out with Lois and Abigail to the library,with Lois's cousins.Mark and

Matthew.To be honest...they are real tall....SUPER TALL!!!almost a (sec 4 kind of

tall)hahas...guess im short.Just admitted it myself!!!well....its a day since i

graduated from elementary school.Feels wierd,sad like it was all just a dream.I knew

right from the beginning everyone's gotta go.....i knew it.Whenever someone tells

you smth that is not true.....just nod your head and say "uh-hmm"....works

wonder.Just a little tip from me.

To someone:

breaking up dosen't mean it is the end of the world....don't have to feel depressed

live your life to the fullest.My point....don't die....

~Chitora Sumiya-Beline

2009-11-19T21:01:00.000+08:00

2009-11-19T20:46:00.000+08:00

2009-11-19T18:50:00.000+08:00

Its the second last day of school.No more fun,sadness,maybe gossips.I guess?

well....worst comes to worst,i culd still text them,faceook them in any ways i culd ever contact. I love all of my friends and i will like to be with them for eternity.
well....time flies and soon we are all graduating from primary school huh.Sounds a little wierd right now.im bawling my eyes out right now.May chances be arranged for me to meet up wif my perfect frens.
To all:
I hope everyone get along well...in secondary 1.Strange i might be saying this....but let destiny be our meeting chances.Don't worry about everything.Don't give up and strive to do your very best!!!

2009-11-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

what would you do if today was your last day??

2009-11-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of school..sort of...

Im kinda tired lately,have no idea why.Something's wrong with me

lately.Weak.Tired.Nevermind that...i have to say something.I know i have to!To a

special someone:Valerie,Jia lei and Xuan yin...

Leave things the way they are.Bearing grudges isn't really the best idea ryt

now.Start afresh in a new environment next year.Every step counts.Every argument

counts,Im sorry if i did anything.I apologise...and pls try to put the past behind

you.Remember follow your heart and lead the light out of journey's way from now

onwards...*sobs*

I saw someone crippled at jp....crippled but able to perform using the harmonica to

make music.Its courageous really....its a way of making a living too.Not just

begging.But using smth in you to earn a living thats wad i admire about the old

crippled man.3 cheers!!!

~chitora Sumiya,beline

2009-11-11T20:49:00.000+08:00

2009-11-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

Seems...like one day has passed again...one more week to go and three days.Then

everyone i ever knew is going to be separated soon.Its frustrating?Of course.Sad?

yeah sure.I really feel a little attached to that little elementary school that we

left behind.And we have to move on to high school which probably take a few weeks to

adjust into an entire new environment.Bye

Chitora-Beline

2009-11-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

My sister and doggy!!

Its been a long time since i last came to my blog....got a little bored and

continued with boring stuff and all...like a non-stop computer machine....isn't that

boring enuf??I wonder...well,friends and best friends are hard to come.Treat them as

precious gems in your life not just only a stepping stone.

2009-11-05T12:18:00.000+08:00

Why is people so unfair sumtyms? Reality speaks for everything.Why not come back to

the real world,maybe by then I should understand the whole picture.Every single

thing that is ever on this.Look....ITs just for the best in all of the things we ever

done in our life...I don't even know what i have been doing for the past 6 years.It

just really explains you know....really explains.Why not just say certain things

change drastically,not just for a minute but for a whole lifetime there ever was.I

know that.
~Chitora Sumiya

2009-10-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

HAppy BIrthday Abigail!!!Wish all your wishes will come true!!!Let's start over and

never care about the past animore.OK???THis song is for you!!!

2009-10-24T23:27:00.001+08:00

I created a new name for myself!!"Chitora Sumiya"JApanese!Today,I signed up for a

guitar course finally."yakata"(thankfully in japanese)Starting tomorrow!!Im so glad!!

"Oreshi"(im so happy in japanese)Hip-Hip-HUrray! Lost my way today while going for a

gathering wif daddy.Wierd!!Got a new mobile with "zero value"coz of the plan...cool

huh?New guitar too!!^^oh and uh..."INQ"model.THis is my mobile model.Heard of it?I

know that it is originated in Europe and is the latest model.Blehx!!My pictures!!!

And my contact numbers!Still grieving!!!!BOo hoooo!!!>_<

~BEline"Chitora Sumiya"

2009-10-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

GUitar Originals!!!

~Beline

And Lunatic tears song(11eyes opening)

Feelings that are sumtimes in a good way

2009-10-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

SOmetimes...You just feel like its the end to a friendship.Something that is so big

but loose...when its just myself with the frens that is close to me,i can be

myself.Among others... I just can't.When People say its easier to strike while the

iron is hot.I'd rather wait.People who tells you different things like.Its not worth

wasting breathe on you..JUst take it as a compliment.Perhaps its just fate.

Its not good trying to keep a glum face all the time so why not lift some spirits up

perhaps...It might be a good thing??

~Beline

2009-10-18T21:28:00.001+08:00

2009-10-18T21:18:00.000+08:00

These songs are great!!

2009-10-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

I wish..I just wish...sumtimes its hard to remember many things that happens in life.I wish

everything will pass soon enuf.If i said that i'm not nervous about my exam results...that is

definitely a lie!!I just hope that everything's gonna stay the way it is in tis long after time.

You know maybe sumtimes it is not about the ppl around us that is causing the problems.Wad if

its us??My words has caused some troubles,but who knows?Sumtimes its just easier to

see when theres no trouble.I hurt ppl,ppl hurt me.I guess this is life.Life just grows in circle.Isn't

it??btw...Guitar cources will be coming up for me!!!

~Beline